Last night there was a Karaoke contest at a local bar called Shaka's.
Our friend Jose came into the skate shop to tell us and make sure I entered.
So, Tony MADE me go and guess what? I WON! I WON $30
It was so hilarious.
I sang Carole King and the Carpenters and Aretha Franklin and Bonnie Raitt....
Seriously I felt SO good afterward.....I usually have to work 3 hours to make $30.
Did you know I could sing? Nobody in town did and it was awesome!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Getting old, getting weird.
My friends are getting married, making 6 figures or traveling the world.
It's so hard to feel good about myself when I cant even take care of myself properly.
Nothing's really worked out for us here, or anywhere. I've pissed away my talents and my future is here and rather dull. My biggest project now is rounding up enough funds to get home for A holiday.
This isn't a post about being poor, really.
It's more about not following your dreams and actually using the talents that someone with an actual plan might have given you. This can't be all that I am here for? Costing my parents money still and not only, not making ends meet but joining others in a hole. Making 12 bucks an hour including tips and wearing the same bra and shoes everyday while doing it.
Do I like where I live? Yes. Oxygen ocean open spaces.
We need our OWN house....I need our own house with a room with a door that I can put SOMEONE in and shut it when I need to. I need to fix my credit and fix the past. Our shop is SO CLOSE to doing great but we never have enough stuff.
.
What started this was learning that my friend Kirk is getting married, to a stick figure certainly, and he's always done everything he wanted to do, sometimes VERY WELL.
Wish I could say the same thing.
This isn't my fate I'm living is it?
I'm a MOM.
And an employee.
Thats it.
Pity Party at my house.
It's so hard to feel good about myself when I cant even take care of myself properly.
Nothing's really worked out for us here, or anywhere. I've pissed away my talents and my future is here and rather dull. My biggest project now is rounding up enough funds to get home for A holiday.
This isn't a post about being poor, really.
It's more about not following your dreams and actually using the talents that someone with an actual plan might have given you. This can't be all that I am here for? Costing my parents money still and not only, not making ends meet but joining others in a hole. Making 12 bucks an hour including tips and wearing the same bra and shoes everyday while doing it.
Do I like where I live? Yes. Oxygen ocean open spaces.
We need our OWN house....I need our own house with a room with a door that I can put SOMEONE in and shut it when I need to. I need to fix my credit and fix the past. Our shop is SO CLOSE to doing great but we never have enough stuff.
.
What started this was learning that my friend Kirk is getting married, to a stick figure certainly, and he's always done everything he wanted to do, sometimes VERY WELL.
Wish I could say the same thing.
This isn't my fate I'm living is it?
I'm a MOM.
And an employee.
Thats it.
Pity Party at my house.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
It's getting easier and easier to be a good parent. All of a sudden these two beautiful kids are so much more important than me and my problems. At the end of the day I am SO grateful and thankful and I know that we are doing what were supposed to do even though it seems so silly sometimes.
I always thought that we'd have a few more visitors and couch surfers but there is always time for that.
However, my parents better not die while I'm out here on an island.
I cant handle the thoughts of their deaths yet and forbid them from dieing for at least 15 years.
Got it?
15 years. I'll be 47!!!!!!!!
Holy CRAP!
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